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if wishes were horses...layout 2010.~
The personal site? ..Update :: Jan 2 2010 :: Well the new year is upon us. Groovy. My New Year was spent with a quiet house (shock shock!) and a ton of World of Warcraft. I know, boring. But to me a quiet start is the BEST way to go. Heres to hoping nothing taints this year and everything comes up peaches! Hahahaha...
Another edit, just because I can :P ... I hope this doesn't come up gimped, I am writing this page on my Macbook - my little Silver Mac. Awe. Anywho yeah. Was thinking about the beginning of this year so far (Second sim card died in my Iphone, Iphone dies..ah yeah fun times!) and i've come to realize that life is way too short to get upset over the little things. I once had the line from The Crow "Love Never Dies" on my right arm tattooed, and I meant every single bit of the phrase. If it is true love, it will infect never die. It will grow and mature. Even if apart. It will mature like a savings bond .. You know? I own a domain with the same nameÛwas thinking of turning it into a photo site - because the love for my photography (no matter how good or how little) will never die. See my point? No matter how big or how small. Even when my kids are all adults and moved out, the love for them will never die. A bond like real true love is something which never lets go. Sure you have your problems, but that is something that can be worked on. If its meant to be, it will be. If it isn,t' well then it was not meant to be Ûand just chalk it up to another memory in your life :) Good or bad.
I have also realized that possessions do not make the person. You make who you are. Do not lie behind the past. Do not hide behind who you really are. If you want to be Goth, say so. If you want to be gay, do it. Do not hide. Hiding makes life a lot worse than it actually can be. Don't hide from the real you. Yeah of course I could take my own adviceÛ I should really. Hiding has become a easy thing for me. But it doesn't have to be that way. Living is the best way to goÛ :) Preachy tonight aren't I? Jah.
Any ideas on what I should do with my domain? Hahaha..not this one, but the one mentioned previously. I mean I have this one, I have EvenAngelsFall.net, and Beautifulhalo.net (although that one may end up getting dumped in the near futureÛwe'll see!) ..so I don't know. Hah my mind is scattered.
Also for NY resolutions I made a small few for myself. Spend more time with my kids. Enjoy the little things that life has to offer. Meh lose about ten pounds.. & find a good job. Also not let issues from past lives come back to bite me in the future my future is what I make of it right :)
Update Jan 3rd 2010 :: Just some random little edits here and there. Found an awesome editor for the Mac, so my pages won't look messy ha ha... Am seriously thinking about my life and the stuff which has come and gone. Especially my job - in 6 days I will officially not have a job anymore..which bites the big one. People keep asking me what I plan on doing. You know, I had originally planned to go for some uptraining...But our lovely government decided to cut that program .. boogers. Was also thinking maybe going back to school. Just to do something, anything. I don't know, I really want to do something which will help others. I want to give back to those who have helped me in the past... Something, anything...Hmm... and open up my eyes to life a little bit more. I mean there is more to life than holding grudges...and other sorts. I don't bring up my kids that way, and I do not want to be up that way either. Seriously...its also hard because I come across those "crossroads" in life...the ones in which do you want to re-locate to obtain employment? The only way I would do that is IF I had the job secured first. Honestly the only reason I am staying here is because my children like it here...we have so much going for us (well sometimes ha ha ha) but I am a self described "Nomad" ... the only piss off is I planned to settle down in this house...and now, not so sure :P ... Anywho yeah. Just random thoughts... Random. I know .
Update Jan 4th 2010 :: Typing this in the dark...as I listen to "Brothers Grimm" on the telly. Well no I own it on DVD... but still its something. Anywho I had some random thoughts come to me today..as I was listening to "Whadya want from me" by Adam Lambert. If you truly sit down and listen to the lyrics, you realize that he's trying to say "whatdya want from me"...and the lyrics really do make you think. I personally have always been a firm believer in going for what you believe in. Your dreams, wishes and desires. Hell some wicked desires are what brought me to my current place of residence. Mwahaha. But I also firmly believe if you believe in someone or something do not give up. If you must give up, try to work on the place/person .. Me .. Well I firmly believe that I gave up on something/someone that I didn't mean to. I hurt this something/someone more than anyone can possibly imagine. I wholeheartedly came to terms with this last year..sadly when it became too late for anything to mean ... a thing! I mean desire and emotions are what moved me from my hometown... I don't regret moving here. I actually do like it here. I just want the word out there to be - don't turn your back. Work on it. Make sure you do what you can with what you have. Someone is going to say I am pining or wishing for "what could have been". Not wishing no. Not pining either. Through counseling and support from my amazing friends and close family, I have come to the conclusion that if you work on yourself and your heart..eventually good things will come in time.
Update Jan 12th 2010 :: Well heck this isn't too much of an update. Just sitting here watching "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" ...on DVD. Was bored out of my tree... and had enough playing WoW for one evening. Just thinking about all of the politics of that game..and how so many cranky people play it!:P . I still think the random dungeon finder needs quite the tweaking. But that is for Blizzard to figure out. Also some random run ins with Bell Mobility over the past month. Eeek. I really want to advise those looking into getting or purchasing a new cellphone contract to double, triple check everything before you sign up. Seriously. I know, I am horrible for reading the fine print but...seriously. My best advise is to always pick the brain of the sales person. Always. Make sure you get the most value for your dollar. From my recent experience... trust only those companies you know the most. That or just don't bother with a cellphone. This coming from someone who was nick named "cellphone girl" many moons ago.
Update Jan 17th 2010 :: The new Adam Lambert vid is out...he looks so sad in the vid. Another song I would sing ha ha if I had a singing voice.
Update Jan 18th 2010 :: My oldest son is now officially 16 years of age. Holy shit. Where has the time gone? Wow.
Update Jan 23rd 2010 :: As of yesterday, it has been two years since Heath Ledger passed away.. The world is such a different place now. I mean with all of the wars, the earthquakes, the tornados... its horrible. I mean his young light went out far too soon. Sure I didn't know him personally, but he did touch a lot of people. I do still feel horrible for his lovely daughter...for losing someone so close @ such a young age. *sigh* ... I know, such a random thought isn't it? Bah.
My Windows Live Messanger will not connect at all. I don't know what is wrong with it. I think it has a repair mod, but I am just too lazy to fix it. Besides, hardly anyone uses it.
Update Jan 26th 2010 :: Updated a bit of the links, about me and domain information. Err, wait we are on the domain information page. Hah! Anywho all of those have been updated. One of these days I will get off my arse and change the layout completely. We shall see. My Windows Live is now working - had to go through uninstalling and repairing. What a pain. But it is working now...same ol' msn user name.
Update Jan 28th 2010 :: Well... I twittered about this earlier, but here goes. On this day 2 yrs ago, it changed my life completely. But through thick and thin, through heaven and through hell, I am still standing tall. Sure there are days where I still mourn what didn't happen...life moves on. Heh. My life has changed so much in those two years...(heh except having sex, I haven't had sex in over 2 yrs! Holy shit!)..for my kids, its worth it. I mean I may mourn, but also I gained one of my sons back into my life full time. So hey...I still miss things, but hey life moves on. No need to live in the past
Update Feb 4th 2010:: Well Brandon Lee's birthday has come and gone. I made this video tribute for him ages ago, and I thought I would share it here....
Aaaand.... hehe...
Update Feb 6th 2010 Well before I jump onto DDR - wanted to make mention of something. I am open with my kids. Well, to a point. They don't need to know everything, especially about fights of ze past. Although the girls really love Adam Lambert - they do ask why boys wear makeup. I explain to them that some men like wearing make up (heh, and look damn good wearing it too!) ... They will never be close minded if I have anything to say about it :)I also explain to them about color not being a issue...nor about some men and women who prefer their same sex. Not to confuse them because they are too young yet...but they do need to know that love is commonplace. Period. People may say I am giving them far too much information. Thats fine. They are not your children and I prefer children who are not close minded... :) |
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